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I'm confused about the relationship with my boyfriend. I love him bit I am afraid of losing him. How fan I ne different?

OK, long story short: we are childhood friends. He came in a time where he struggled a lot as a child and I understood many things of him only later. My mom found him and his aunt in a train station almost 18 ys ago. His parents died in a migrants ship sunk by the gov. He barely spoke at the time but we became friends slowly and shared everything (food homeworks bikes time). They stayed at our home because his aunt worked but nobody was willing to male her a contract so they stayed with us for 2 ys.Then his aunt died of cancer and ne was sent back to our country. I never heard from him for like 15 ys. I met him by chance on a journey and he fell in love but I am so jealous and insecure of his love, I was alone for years I was bullied and think that life is not for me. I am a quiet and sensitive girl and I always think that he loves me but not ad much as I do, and I am convinced that he loves me for our childhood and past not because I'm the girl of his dreams. When we argue I go away and dell him to find another girl, richer prettier niger than me he gets mad turns red and explains his points making me feel like a stupid for questioning his love. I love him so much that I could't immagine being left by him but I try to pretend like I'm stronger.

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