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I'm an 18-year-old female and my sex addiction is ruining my life. Does anyone have any advice/input?

I know that me being so young and thinking this about myself is somewhat ridiculous but please hear me out lol. Since I was 10, I've been preoccupied with sex. I'd fantasize about having sex with men much older & was desperate for attention. When I was 10 an older relative touched me & made me have sex. I felt extremely guilty and disgusting, but sometimes it felt good, and I guess since then I needed that feeling.
When I was 15 I went on my first date with a guy and he raped me. I felt stupid to think that a guy wanted to go on a nice, normal date with me. Throughout hs I was depressed, and did almost every drug.

In my freshman year of college alone I've had sex with 25 different guys. I send out "group nudes" when I'm horny and just send out mass nudes. I fantasize about sex so much that I can't pay attention in class, and masturbate too much in bed that I'm late to class. When I get extremely sad I need sex to pick me up, and usually I feel a little better, but sometimes I don't.

I've prostituted myself for $250 as well. I've cheated on ex-boyfriends, mainly because they were emotionally unavailable, but you know. I'm into extreme degradation during sex. I refuse to date normally for some reason, and it's an ego thing if a guy has feelings for me after sex. They usually do, but it's never a normal/healthy relationship. Every guy I've been with has complained that I want sex too much.

I'm extremely uncomfortable w/ my sex life.

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