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I'm a straight guy, but I'm deeply falling in love with a man, I'm so confused ?

I’m a 20 years old straight guy, I’ve never dated a man or was physically attracted to them, yet I do find myself emotionally really attracted to certain male characters (They’re not real), I’m very comfortable with my sexuality to the point I truly wish I was sexually attracted to men, and I even tease my male friends, but never take things seriously.
I’m an extremely stoic person, people see me as a very strong guy, I’m that person who always helps but never asks for help, and I've always been taking care of everyone.. but deep, deep inside there’s this dark part of me that no one knows, which is a little child that longs to BE a child, the part of me that wants to cry and be held and give myself up, but yet I always fight it till this day I met this man.. The intimacy between us is undescribable, since the first time I looked into his eyes its like he looked right into my soul, and its not physical attraction at all, never in my life, not even in sex, I’ve felt this way just by the way he looks into my eyes.. It terrifies me.. My body melts and burns, I start to shiver, and I feel I’m on the edge of surrendering.. And he’s a 40+ straight AND married man, he's a very, very decent gentleman (AND a stoic person as well, probably much more than me) BUT he feels the same way about me!? I’m so confused and terrified.. What is this ? and what in the world should I do ? I'm deeply falling for him..

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